What I’m afraid of…

… right now.

I’d like to blame it on the holidays. I’d like to say that I was thinking about it, trying to make it perfect for you.

Straight fact is, I’m scared and I’m a bit confused.

I’m scared that it won’t be good enough to read. I’m scared that nobody will read it. I’m scared that it will never come to anything. I’m scared that I’m not good enough or smart enough to tie it all together and get you something that’s really great. I’m scared that it won’t make any sense. I’m scared that maybe I’m a fraud and just pretending.

I’m scared that it’s not going to happen. Putting out regular content around a set idea isn’t easy, and I’ve got pages of written content. But, I have no idea how to proceed. I don’t know what’s next and as I continue to write and not release it just adds to the confusion. More stuff to sort through, more unfinished work that needs to be wrapped.

I wish it was as easy as asking what is next and just doing that, but the truth is that I started somewhere in the middle and I’m not sure whether to go backward or forward.

The only way that this is going to happen, is for me to keep going. It’s going to have to be organic and messy.

So, this isn’t going to be sequential.

The release order isn’t going to make sense.

The story will unfold in a strange manner.

And that’s how it has to be.

As the ideas come, they will be released. I’ll start to organize them after they are released.

This isn’t a book, it’s a journey into creativity.

It was bound to get a little bumpy along the way.

I hope that you are tough enough to take a little jostling.

Join me as we explore the creative process.

You’ll get to watch something raw start to take form and become something great.

In the meantime, you need to know one thing.

You are the masterpiece, I’m just here to help you become that.

Much love from the New Year,

-Cannon